I Can't wait for the end of October

So as I told you guys before at the end of October is Rogelio's 1st interview! Yay! I can't wait. I feel like that kid that finally got taken to the candy store and couldn't eat the candy Intel she was good. Well I can almost taste that candy:)

I hopefully will find out then when his next interview is and when they think that he will be able to come back home to us. Finally then I will not feel like my life is on hold. Waiting for it to start.
Rogelio said that he feels like we are getting closer too. Like it's almost here he can almost taste it but not quite yet.

Rogelio and I have not been on web cam lately, We are going to cam this week sometime. I get so happy when we finally get to cam because its like going on a date well sort of. LOl with your kids and all.:) Hey I even put on makeup and going out clothes some of the time. lol I am so crazy . I just want to make sure that I look good looking for him. I don't want him to see me looking crappy and be like yeah ok thanks for changing out of your pj's for me lol. I don't want him to see me down for him to see me sad or not looking good.

I don't want him to know that its like that at all. I want to make everything look fine for him so that he is not down about things and feeling bad. I hate to see him sad or down and why make two of us bad and sad and down? He already gets into his down times why make more for him. I just want him to be happy. I see that it is a lot harder for him to be away from us. His family here and us as family his two sons and wife. For us we are just away from him. I mean sure I miss his family and Marcelo because Marcelo and I used to be best friends but It is nothing compared to missing my love of my life. My heart my world. Someone I would give up everything for. I love Rogelio more then life it self.

The only thing that keeps me alive and more motivated to get him back here is our love, How much I can't live without him but will for a small amount of time that is needed to be able to get him back in my arms.

So the other day I told Antonio that If papi dose not come back soon we will have to go and see him.Lol well He thought that I said that we where going to see Rogelio and started packing....I asked him what he was doing and he said he is trying to pick what toys he was going to take to Ecuador with us....He had already picked his books he was going to take with....then I asked him when he was planing on going and he said well mama you said we were going soon. I had to explain to him what I meant by it. I felt so bad. I really have to watch what words I say when I am talking to a 6 year old. He was upset need less to say but He got over it when I made him some ice cream and got his mind off of things.

Some times I feel like I am always changing the subject with my sons. I do do it on purpose because I don't always feel like talking about Rogelio and all that because it still gets me down and puts me in not always a good mood. Makes me sad that I can't do anything right now to get him back here this min and no matter what the kids say to me or to Rogelio we can't do anything its so hard makes me want to cry.

Rogelio is my life my love my everything I really can't wait Intel he is able to be here with us all. For us to start living. Love you all talk to you later.