Humm.....Thinking...

So today is day number 737! Wow never thought that we would have these many days apart. I talked to Rogelio last night...we made some more plans for when he comes back home and talked about many other things. Still I have not found a way since my first plan fell threw to get to Ecuador but we are still trying to figure out how myself and the kids are going to get down to Ecuador to see him.

Last year in December of 2008 I started feeling really stressed and needed to go see Rogelio asap...I went there and I felt so much better....That is how I want to feel again on now this is the 2nd year mark that we have been apart and I am feeling even more stressed and down then last year at the 1 year mark. Gezzz overwhelms me to even say it has been that long. I never thought that Those words would ever come out of my mouth!

Rogelio is my working man down in Ecuador he trys to keep his mind and body in use so he dose not think about all these problems but me It is harder for me. It makes us feel better at the time to start planning more and more things for when he comes back home. Makes you wonder also is our file just sitting in Panama chilling? Or is someone actually looking at it and saying hummm.....I should send it to Washington its great file...or what is going on? There are so many questions I have and no answers to them...I hope he can come home soon....like on Feb 1, 2010!!! For real! Another thing if you ever think that you can do the same thing and I mean same thing that I did and am doing....you are crazy!!! I don't know what I would do without living with someone at this time....because it is so hard! Thank GOD for parents! Don't take any day just like any other day with your man or women....act like its your last!! I LOVE YOU ROGELIO FOREVER AND EVER!! YOU ARE MY LOVE,MY LIFE, MY EVERYTHING!!!

2 Years!!!

So Now last night was our 2 year mark! Not that we been together....its that we have been apart!! Rogelio has not been here for 731 Days today! that is 2 years and 1 day!! That's how long immigration has kept us apart!!! That is not right!!

Last night I was talking on the phone with Rogelio....I ask him if he remembered that last time that we had court here...we came out of the court room and they had just told us that they are giving him 90 days to Seattle things up and within 90 days he has to be out of the U.S.A.! I still remember what chairs we sat it right outside the court room...Rogelio holding my hand and with his other arm around my shoulder and I was almost crying and Rogelio telling me honey its going to be ok....it is only going to be a short time...the time will fly by so fast we will not even notice it...don't be sad be happy that we are still going to get 3 months together! The lawyer told us that it will not be any longer then 3-6 months max! I love you and I always will no matter where we live no matter where you are. Then him asking me one last time if I was sure that I did not want to go down to Ecuador and live also.

The reason's that I never went down there to live with Rogelio are good reasons....Rogelio has always agreed with it also but it was always hard for him to Remember all the reasons are good points. A few of the reasons where the hospitals are far away,the doc's are not as good as they are here, they had different meds,no money for more beds or other things we needed. I had to stay here to pay our car and some other bills,Antonio starting school and so on...it was just not healthy for us to go down at the time. Now there are even more reasons with the boys always being sick and myself being sick often.We must have gone over this list a million times with all the bad things it over powered the good things...mostly we had to think of the kids first rather then ourselves!

So last night was really hard talking to Rogelio remembering that it was only supposed to be 3-6 months max....after 6 months came along then it was no more then a year! Our lawyer said...after a year came along it was only a few more months and about 2 months ago the lawyer said it was going to be 3 more months as when we got the wavier in but there was problems so we did not file it right away because we needed more paper work....so it has been 2 weeks since we filed it.....I really hope that he gets to come home asap!!! Please everyone pray for us.

2 years is something that I never thought I would be away from my love of my life and my children here without a father.....sometimes calling my friends dad or my father most the time. That is not how I want it. That is Miguel who says it, but both boys fully understand that Rogelio is there father and they both talk to him on the phone and see him on web cam.

In Ecuador when we went last Jan Miguel was so attached to Rogelio as was Antonio. I can't wait for Rogelio to come home so they can be attached to there father again.

When I talk to Rogelio he makes me remember things...and Remember who I am...I know things will be fixed when he comes home.Talk to you all soon:) Thanks for listening to me blab on and on. Lol

I hate to wait!

So it has been a bit since we filed the wavier...still no word on what is going on yet...we are waiting to hear from someone on a update...I hope that it is good news. Antonio had surgery on Monday to open up his airflow in his nose. All went well...he was crying for a while for his papi but fell asleep and did not say much after that. When we got home he still asked for Rogelio and told me that he had a dream that he was here, and that we all went fishing..I thought that was so cute! I really do think that some dreams do come true..I really hope that the ones with Rogelio coming home do come true.

Antonio is playing the Wii right now and sitting on the sofa...well Miguel is getting into everything that is is able to get into..we have played so many games today and done tuns of activity's.We are almost done reading Charlotte's Web we started reading it this morning. We have been reading so much all I can think of is what book we are going to read next. Well I like the books with no pictures Antonio and Miguel love the books with pictures. Gezzz....ordering books from Antonio's school is very hard online when you do not have the right codes to put in...we want to get some "Just Right" books for him that are cheaper getting them from the school. We are overloaded with books but still want more.

I was looking in our things that we save and I found a activity book for Children it was pretty cool!...I must have gotten it a long time ago and put it away so we could do the things when the boys got older. It has Creative Crafts,Singable sons,Tasty Treats and tuns of other things in it. We are going to try and do some of it this week.

Rock Candy I so miss doing that...I remember Crystal Cave days for field trips at school and making Rock Candy well I found out how to make it when I looked it up online and we are going to try and make those also sometime next week. I know that Antonio would love doing it well Miguel would love eating it lol. Antonio cracked my Ipod Touch :( I was so sad but then thought gezz maybe I should not let a 6 year old play with my Ipod Touch...( I am still going to let him play it but should have thought of it before when I first got it LOl oh well life goes on.

Did you know that they have Ipod touch in schools now for the kids??? I thought that was so crazy!

Days go by and makes me wish that I could fly to Ecuador! I pray everyday that Rogelio can come home very soon! The kids need there dad here and I need my Husband here.

About Time!

Ok so here is a update on things and more... We finally got everything correct and filed the wavier papers on Monday! Yay! They accepted them at the American C In Ecuador!!! Yay!!! Now everything that we had to file is filed...all the papers that we needed are in...Now that was the very last step...that we had to do...All we have to do now is wait!...yes waiting for me sucks. I hate to wait on anything! At least I have something good I am waiting for...ROGELIO TO COME HOME!!!!...so here is the thing how it works...well this is what they told Rogelio when he filed the papers....The papers go to Panama then from Panama they go to Washington...They told him that It could be less then 3 months or it could be 6 months or up to a year! That sounds like a very long time....All we can do now is Pray...Pray that he is back here in way less time! For real like I want him here tommw!!....I still plan on making my way to Ecuador in Feb but it would be nice and very good if he could come home with me!.....Come on people can't I just put him in my suit case? Whats wrong with that? I would totally pay the over weight price on my husband for my suit case lol:)

There have been so many things that I have thought of how to get him home with me...but none of them are quite legal so there for I can not do it....I want everything to be done right...so I will never have to go threw everything that I am going threw again in my life ever!! It was worth it to go threw anything to get my love of my life back here but I don't think I could do anything like this ever again...come on people I moved back in with my parents something that I thought that I would never do in my life!

I went from the only person I knew that moved out on her own made a life for herself and a family at a young age had savings and had mostly everything I wanted in life or I was getting there....then we ran into the immigration problem....I love my husband to death but...if someone was to ask me or if I was to see someone with someone who did not have papers my words for the person would be don't be with that person leave before you fall in love with them...do not even have a relationship with them....it gets hard because most people would do anything for the person they love and the person who you want to spend the rest of your life with....but really it makes it so hard on you....even though Rogelio and I have had a better Relationship....and grew us more together I still would say that to other people...

I always say that I would never take anything back in life or change anything....And I would not....even though I have been threw alot with the whole immigration thing ....I have learned tuns!!

Some things I have learned...Shopping...you can shop for a lot cheaper....don't setal for things that are a lot of money you can always shop around and find it cheaper....how to clean with different products....how to take better care of my children...whats wright and wrong....not taking so much things for granted...who your real friends are...family comes first...money is not everything....spending limits....taking care of a pet is a lot!!...life lessons from living with my father there must have been like a million things that my dad has taught me or I have learned from him that I did not know before....sure he gets to talk alot and I mean a lot but if you listen a lot of it is interesting most of the time....( my father has been around the world and back):) ....there are soo sooo much more that I have learned but I will not write all of them lol....

For me to be able to step back from the life that I had and look at what I was doing and what I needed to change and grow up on some parts was something that I needed to do...something that I understand now is that I am ready...I am ready to move on with life...and never stop learning things but to move on be my new self....be ME!

I pray every day that Rogelio can come home very soon! Like tommw:) I dream every night about how our life will be again together at last!

On another note...last week we were all sick here at the house with the belly virus! it sucked even Antonio had to cancel his surgery that we had last week because we were all sick...he will be having surgery again soon...He has a pre-op then later the surgery...I am nerves like I always am without Rogelio here....It is very hard for Antonio to go threw things without his dad here.

One thing that I do not understand and If anyone knows why this is tell me....Why do people with records get to stay here and get papers here in U.S.A. then they send people back to there country's that have family's here and have not done anything wrong but that they came here without a visa?

Well I will chat with you all later Miguel is starting to get into things....:) Please Pray for Rogelio to Return fast! Thanks:)

Waiting On Things....

So We thought of getting a new lawyer but......we checked it out and it seemed that we should try this with the lawyer that we have.....There are so many other lawyers out there that all they want is money....how do you know who to trust with your life? It is a hard thing to decide.....you have to think about it and even though we do not always make the best of decisions we try to do what we think is best at the time.

All this immigration stuff is so hard....We still have not filed for the wavier but in a few days we will be...then its the waiting game.....I know I have not wrote in here for a long time so I wanted to write something.....It has been VERY hard here with out Rogelio makes me want to win a million dollars and go stay with him....well it might not come to that...but I really hope he can come home soon....This whole thing has changed my life so much and so many other peoples.....I really hope it dose not come to me having to go to Ecuador to live....that would not be the best choice for the children....it would be only hurting them.....there are so many bad things in Ecuador and not enof med's and help for the children that they need like we have here In U.S.A. it would be hard. I know it is very hard for Rogelio to be there and away from us.....I don't want to put the kids threw that for a long period of time. We could do it for a bit but not long.....well talk to you guys soon.......