Ecuador Yay!

So I have not wrote in this blog for a long time so I thought it was time to update it. Rogelio is still in Ecuador well we wait for him to come home:( That is something that is not good at all. He should be home already! for Real panama Cant you already just approve him to come home?

Panama has his paper work now and we are just waiting on them to approve the waiver. I really hope that its approved soon! It should have been approved by now. My lawyer and another person who has been helping us both wrote panama and they said they still do not have a answer yet! This is crazy! He should be home.

We all miss Rogelio so much I can't wait for him to be home already! I just want a normal life with him and not to worry about him all the time. Our kids miss him so much. He is missing out on there lifes everyday that he is gone. It has been so hard on him also not being here.

Well some good news is that we are going to Ecuador soon! We bought our tickets and we are packing already! I can't wait to see Rogelio! Our sons are super happy that we are going down there. Well I am so stoked! The thing is thou I do not want to have to go down there I want him to be able to come home to us! At least this will have to due for now. At least we can hold eachother and talk face to face and spend time together like normal people do when they are married! It still makes me sad that I will not be able to keep my time forever with him! But who knows maybe we will get the news when we are down there that he is able to come home?? you hear that Panama! Please let him come home with us when we leave Ecuador! The time goes by so fast when we are there! I hate that I want to spend alot of time with him like my whole life! Not just a week!

I hate that our phone calls are short and always get cut out because of the phone lines! Also for me to be able to talk to him I have to like call 10 times before it goes threw! Thats calling the calling card entering your pin then calling his long ass number! Grrrr...its hard when you have kids that are wild in the background when you talk on the phone with him also! I just want to be able to be with him forever!

I know I blab alot but gezzz just my thoughts! Please pray that he will be able to come home with us when we visit Ecuador! Thanks for listening to me:)

Update...Where are we?

So we are unsure on where we are standing right now with our immigration case...alot has happen since I wrote here last...
we got a e-mail from Ecuador saying that our case was fwwd to Panama In Washington D.C. and to check with them on the stats of the case.

So are lawyer wrote Panama in D.C. Washington...before we got a response from them I got a letter in the mail from them saying that something on one of the forms that we turned in was not signed correct...go figure something has to go wrong every time...it always happens to Rogelio and I. So long story short..we sent paper e-mail to Rogelio in Ecuador and he signed it and brought to place in Ecuador....so in the letter that I got from Panama they said that our case was fwwd to the Dept of State...we are unsure where the case stands right now...but the dept of state is Panama...so it dose not all match up....so we are trying to figure out what is going on from here on and where the case is....I am sure that we will find out soon. So mean time it is another waiting game...Hope things change soon...Rogelio has been having a feeling that he is going to be able to come home very soon...I have that same feeling...I went shopping a bit...I bought Rogelio some clothes and things so when he comes home he will have things...he has some things here but most his things he brought down to Ecuador...alot of his clothes are bad because they have got so dirty or old down there....it has been 833 days since he has been gone. I can't wait Intel he is able to come home and for us to all be a happy family again!!! Antonio feels his dad is going to be home soon also...that has to be some kind of sign right? Please pray for us...I love you all! I will try and keep things updated on here:)

8 Months????

So I have sort of an update on somethings....I talked to my Lawyers assistant today on the phone...I was calling her to see if they called Ecuador to check up on the stats of Rogelio's case...she told me that they did not use the pin number and they e-mailed Ecuador because they did not want to use my min's on my pin number.....Um hello that's why I got the pin number in the first place is for them to use it...I do not know why they did not just write a e-mail in the first place....they are the ones who told me to buy the pin number and that is the way they check on things...ummm...actually they could have e-mailed the whole time...odd...anyways so she sent the e-mail to Ecuador and we have to wait up to 2 weeks to get a response from them...they will be telling my lawyer's when they sent the paper work off to Panama...we filed the papers in Ecuador in January of 2010...so...

My lawyer's said depending on when they actually sent the paper work out to Panama...then we will know aprox when he will be able to get approved...but here is the thing she told me that it most likely will take a min of 8 months from the date they sent the paper work to panama!!!!! That is so crazy!!! When I heard 8 months I almost cried!! That is not some thing that I want to hear after I have been waiting this long!!! Then she told me that she thinks it will be 15 Months max!!! Are you crazy are you out of your mind!!! That is so long!!! WTF!!! Really???? Do you guys want me to die before I can actually have a real life with my husband and kids and be in a real frame of mind????

So I am not sure what I am going to do about all this...I don't think I am going to do anything intel I hear from my lawyers within two weeks here...so I will be freaked out in the mean time...I also have another person working on some things...I can not say the name of the person but someone else is checking on things with my husband so we will see how all that goes and see what she also says...

I hope I hear at least some good new's from one of the people...I am thinking about getting other people involved but the only thing with that is alot of people do not like to get involved when other party's are already working on some things...but we will see how things go for these two weeks.

I really do want to go down to Ecuador to be with Rogelio but I have to think of everything before I just make a jump and do that...Like I said before...the kids come first right now because Rogelio and I have to do what is best for them...we will see how everything turns out.

Miguel turns 3 this month....Rogelio really wishes that he could be here for his birthday..it is really hard on the kids and I and more harder on Rogelio not to be here. As he always tells me what if I was to have the kids down here and you were alone over there....would you feel lost and lonely? I always say yes! I do not know what I would do without Rogelio and the kids not here..

Antonio tells me all the time that he wants to go live with papi...I always tell him I am sorry but you can not you need to wait for him to come home...he still dose not fully understand but he will one day that we kept him in America for the best for him.

Well enof of me blabing on...I will update you guys soon on more things that go on tommw is Rogelio's birthday....I am sad that I am not with him!! Happy 1 day early Birthday honey I love you more then the whole world! Te Amo Mucho!!!!!

Still on the waiting page of life:(

So nothing new as of right now to really update people for....but thought that I should write on here anyways. Antonio had his spring vacation we did do a lot of things then just sit around the house and read ....lol...we actually left the house and did things....my niece came over for a few days also and that was nice to see her...even though we tried to get her to go on web cam and see her dad she was too shy...her dad was upset and still dose not understand why she was acting the way that she was acting....

I understand why she was acting that way well almost understand but what I get from it is...shes 13 years old she is a teenager...you can't tell them everything to do because they will not listen they have to want to do it on there own. She loves her father and wants to see him but she wants to see him in person....I know that she still dose not understand about the whole immigration system even though she tells me she understand she is still a teenager and it is going to take her years to fully understand...A big reason that she was shy was that there was other family members there that she dose not know that much only from talking to on the computer a bit and she feels odd having everyone look at her on cam. She has not seen her father in person for about 5 years now because he was deported years back... he has tried to come back a few times only reason is to be here with his daughter but he got caught all the times he had tried. It has been really hard for him to live without his daughter...I hear about it all the time.....I wish that she would have been able to go with us when we went to Ecuador but her mom had not took the steps to get her passport so she was not able to go....passports seems easy to get right? nope not when you are under 18 and one parent is not in the country....but it can be easy....you have to get a paper from the passport place and have the parent out of country fill it out notarize it and send it back when you get it back then you have to take it to the passport place and file for a passport....after the person out of country has signed it and sent it back go right away to the passport place because there is a time line that the paper that was signed is good for.

I guess it is just harder for some people to do. Everyone is different I guess....so on another note Rogelio has been keeping his mind on other things like helping his brother out and doing things to help people down in Ecuador....along with fishing and hunting alot:) He would love to hunt when he comes back here because that is something that he has done alot of since he has been down there:)

Rogelio has been telling me how much it is raining down there and it makes him almost miss the snow....he is not much of a rain person:) I think it dose it for you when you all winter are in rain not snow...very different when you were used to snow for over 16 years and then go from snow to rain....lol...

It is very much the baby boom in Ecuador....seems like everyone lately is having babys!! So crazy! Rogelio will be sending me photo's from Ecuador soon....I can't wait to see them:)

I really hope that Rogelio is able to come home soon...Still a waiting game....I wish that he would be able to come home next week sometime....I really miss him and I know that he misses us. The kids need there father here and it has very much affected Antonio with all things...only because Rogelio is not here...a growing boy needs his father here.....Love you all take care I will keep updates when I have them:) Pray that Rogelio can come home soon!!<3

Dreams,Real,waiting....

So Yeah I have not wrote on my blog for a bit now...there has been alot going on in my life....first of all I have been sick alot more these past days...Antonio has gotten sick a few times....missed alot of doc's appointments...now we have to wait another month to get other ones:( Miguel has had a cold and cough that has stuck around:( Guess what????? Someone stolid My S.S. # and has been working with it! Yeah really crazy! I really hope they get the person who did this to me:( Makes me Angry and sad at the same time!

So I have been threw alot with my S.S. # being used...spent so many hours if not days working on getting things straight with it all and I am still not done! Grrrr Drives me nuts...seems like all the things that could go wrong has gone wrong with things:(

I had a Dream the other night....I dream that I picked up Rogelio from the airport because he was finally able to come home....to make a long dream short.....then we got all of our things together and then we ended up at a party....a party someone was having because Rogelio was finally Home!!! All of our friends and family was there...Rogelio and I were holding eachother and finally together Happy! It felt soooo good....Then I woke up:( I was so sad:( That sucks! I wish that my dream will come true....

On another note...Rogelio saw his other son...his son that is in Ecuador that he has never met before.....the women he had his son with did not want anything to do with us at all....we bought him some things before and send him stuff but not nearly enof that a father should have been sending a son....his mother would not let us....trying to contact her over the years have been so hard....we have not been able to...we have tryed so hard.....a few years ago we found out that she came and is still in the U.S.A. we were never able to contact Rogelio's son nor her...her family did not want us to contact them nor did they care about what we wanted....Rogelio was in town last week and saw him...he saw his son...he did not go up to him he did not talk to him...but he knew it was him...from photo's that we have saw...less then a week ago Rogelio's son contacted Rogelio's sister....he wants to meet his dad...I guess that his mothers father is who he is staying with...and his grandpa is really mean to him and there are alot of problems there....not the most perfect time for his son to come into our life's but I want Rogelio to finally meet his son...he has never meet him...so we are waiting for Rogelio's son to contact his sister again..because he has no phone number....then we will see what go's on. I just hope that everything go's well...

So we are still waiting on Rogelio to be able to come back home....no word yet...no update...just a waiting game! This is so crazy....there are days that I wake up and want to jump on a plane to Ecuador and there are days I don't want to get out of bed at all....I just want Rogelio back here so we can be a family again and start our life out fresh! I love Rogelio with all my heart and soul...<3 you Rogelio!!!!

No word...

So there is no word yet on a update on Rogelio's case...waiting and waiting...I guess that's why they call it a waiting game..


Our lawyer wants us to buy a pin number and give it to them so they will be able to call and check up on things...we were waiting for our other person ( name not to be said) to call and see if there was a update on things but she told us that she is still waiting...so we are going to have our lawyer call once Rogelio buys a pin number in Ecuador to call.

I really wish that everything did not cost money, wish all money grew on trees but then if it did there would be for sure no trees around....lol...too many people are money hungry!...I am finally getting over my bad cold that I have had for like ever...I still feel like crap and wish that Rogelio was here to take care of me but at least I am doing better...Antonio had to stay home this week for a day because his cold was bad and could not stop coughing....I really do not think that it had to do with his asthma...but I am sure that it did make it a bit bad then other colds...Antonio has been having alot of problems lately....and I mean a large amount of problems....alot of the problems come from Rogelio not being here.....I think I have had a conversation with Antonio about at least 10 times this week how I can not control what immigration says about when Rogelio comes home...he just keeps getting mad at me because of it...I can't take it all personal because he dose not understand and he is still a kid...but it still hurts..I really just wish they would let him come back now!!

As Miguel is jumping on my back to put my hood of my shirt on he says look its papi....referring that Rogelio always has a hat on...lol its cute...hard to be always thinking about Rogelio and not to be able to have him here. Really Why do they make you go crazy before he is able to come back???

There are so many things that need to be fixed but can not be fixed Intel Rogelio is here. I wish our wish would come true and be able to have Rogelio come home asap!!! Really life is so short!!! And we have been apart for so long!!

Long Lasting Love I have been seeing those words around more often now....those are words that remind me of Rogelio and I. He is my love my everything...I would do anything for him...Please pray that he can come home like on V day! lol for real thou.

V day is tommw!!!! I do not have anyone here but my boys that I can spend time with....but that is not what I want....I want my boys and My husband here!!!!! sort of like I want my cake and to eat it 2! but that is how it should be!! Rogelio, myself and the boys should be together...well every ones talking about what they are doing for V day...I'm thinking dam I wish I was doing something...I still remember the 1st V day Rogelio and I were together! He got me a Large Cd player 5 disk changer very nice and a entertainment center, flowers and made food for me.....it was so nice!

PRAY THAT ROGELIO CAN COME HOME VERY SOON! LOVE YOU ALL AND LOVE LIFE ITS SHORT! CARE FOR YOUR FAMILY AND REMEMBER FAMILY ALWAYS COMES FIRST AND THAT FRIENDS ARE NOT ALWAYS FOREVER! I LOVE YOU ROGELIO!!! MORE THEN THE WORLD IT SELF!!

Humm.....Thinking...

So today is day number 737! Wow never thought that we would have these many days apart. I talked to Rogelio last night...we made some more plans for when he comes back home and talked about many other things. Still I have not found a way since my first plan fell threw to get to Ecuador but we are still trying to figure out how myself and the kids are going to get down to Ecuador to see him.

Last year in December of 2008 I started feeling really stressed and needed to go see Rogelio asap...I went there and I felt so much better....That is how I want to feel again on now this is the 2nd year mark that we have been apart and I am feeling even more stressed and down then last year at the 1 year mark. Gezzz overwhelms me to even say it has been that long. I never thought that Those words would ever come out of my mouth!

Rogelio is my working man down in Ecuador he trys to keep his mind and body in use so he dose not think about all these problems but me It is harder for me. It makes us feel better at the time to start planning more and more things for when he comes back home. Makes you wonder also is our file just sitting in Panama chilling? Or is someone actually looking at it and saying hummm.....I should send it to Washington its great file...or what is going on? There are so many questions I have and no answers to them...I hope he can come home soon....like on Feb 1, 2010!!! For real! Another thing if you ever think that you can do the same thing and I mean same thing that I did and am doing....you are crazy!!! I don't know what I would do without living with someone at this time....because it is so hard! Thank GOD for parents! Don't take any day just like any other day with your man or women....act like its your last!! I LOVE YOU ROGELIO FOREVER AND EVER!! YOU ARE MY LOVE,MY LIFE, MY EVERYTHING!!!

2 Years!!!

So Now last night was our 2 year mark! Not that we been together....its that we have been apart!! Rogelio has not been here for 731 Days today! that is 2 years and 1 day!! That's how long immigration has kept us apart!!! That is not right!!

Last night I was talking on the phone with Rogelio....I ask him if he remembered that last time that we had court here...we came out of the court room and they had just told us that they are giving him 90 days to Seattle things up and within 90 days he has to be out of the U.S.A.! I still remember what chairs we sat it right outside the court room...Rogelio holding my hand and with his other arm around my shoulder and I was almost crying and Rogelio telling me honey its going to be ok....it is only going to be a short time...the time will fly by so fast we will not even notice it...don't be sad be happy that we are still going to get 3 months together! The lawyer told us that it will not be any longer then 3-6 months max! I love you and I always will no matter where we live no matter where you are. Then him asking me one last time if I was sure that I did not want to go down to Ecuador and live also.

The reason's that I never went down there to live with Rogelio are good reasons....Rogelio has always agreed with it also but it was always hard for him to Remember all the reasons are good points. A few of the reasons where the hospitals are far away,the doc's are not as good as they are here, they had different meds,no money for more beds or other things we needed. I had to stay here to pay our car and some other bills,Antonio starting school and so on...it was just not healthy for us to go down at the time. Now there are even more reasons with the boys always being sick and myself being sick often.We must have gone over this list a million times with all the bad things it over powered the good things...mostly we had to think of the kids first rather then ourselves!

So last night was really hard talking to Rogelio remembering that it was only supposed to be 3-6 months max....after 6 months came along then it was no more then a year! Our lawyer said...after a year came along it was only a few more months and about 2 months ago the lawyer said it was going to be 3 more months as when we got the wavier in but there was problems so we did not file it right away because we needed more paper work....so it has been 2 weeks since we filed it.....I really hope that he gets to come home asap!!! Please everyone pray for us.

2 years is something that I never thought I would be away from my love of my life and my children here without a father.....sometimes calling my friends dad or my father most the time. That is not how I want it. That is Miguel who says it, but both boys fully understand that Rogelio is there father and they both talk to him on the phone and see him on web cam.

In Ecuador when we went last Jan Miguel was so attached to Rogelio as was Antonio. I can't wait for Rogelio to come home so they can be attached to there father again.

When I talk to Rogelio he makes me remember things...and Remember who I am...I know things will be fixed when he comes home.Talk to you all soon:) Thanks for listening to me blab on and on. Lol

I hate to wait!

So it has been a bit since we filed the wavier...still no word on what is going on yet...we are waiting to hear from someone on a update...I hope that it is good news. Antonio had surgery on Monday to open up his airflow in his nose. All went well...he was crying for a while for his papi but fell asleep and did not say much after that. When we got home he still asked for Rogelio and told me that he had a dream that he was here, and that we all went fishing..I thought that was so cute! I really do think that some dreams do come true..I really hope that the ones with Rogelio coming home do come true.

Antonio is playing the Wii right now and sitting on the sofa...well Miguel is getting into everything that is is able to get into..we have played so many games today and done tuns of activity's.We are almost done reading Charlotte's Web we started reading it this morning. We have been reading so much all I can think of is what book we are going to read next. Well I like the books with no pictures Antonio and Miguel love the books with pictures. Gezzz....ordering books from Antonio's school is very hard online when you do not have the right codes to put in...we want to get some "Just Right" books for him that are cheaper getting them from the school. We are overloaded with books but still want more.

I was looking in our things that we save and I found a activity book for Children it was pretty cool!...I must have gotten it a long time ago and put it away so we could do the things when the boys got older. It has Creative Crafts,Singable sons,Tasty Treats and tuns of other things in it. We are going to try and do some of it this week.

Rock Candy I so miss doing that...I remember Crystal Cave days for field trips at school and making Rock Candy well I found out how to make it when I looked it up online and we are going to try and make those also sometime next week. I know that Antonio would love doing it well Miguel would love eating it lol. Antonio cracked my Ipod Touch :( I was so sad but then thought gezz maybe I should not let a 6 year old play with my Ipod Touch...( I am still going to let him play it but should have thought of it before when I first got it LOl oh well life goes on.

Did you know that they have Ipod touch in schools now for the kids??? I thought that was so crazy!

Days go by and makes me wish that I could fly to Ecuador! I pray everyday that Rogelio can come home very soon! The kids need there dad here and I need my Husband here.

About Time!

Ok so here is a update on things and more... We finally got everything correct and filed the wavier papers on Monday! Yay! They accepted them at the American C In Ecuador!!! Yay!!! Now everything that we had to file is filed...all the papers that we needed are in...Now that was the very last step...that we had to do...All we have to do now is wait!...yes waiting for me sucks. I hate to wait on anything! At least I have something good I am waiting for...ROGELIO TO COME HOME!!!!...so here is the thing how it works...well this is what they told Rogelio when he filed the papers....The papers go to Panama then from Panama they go to Washington...They told him that It could be less then 3 months or it could be 6 months or up to a year! That sounds like a very long time....All we can do now is Pray...Pray that he is back here in way less time! For real like I want him here tommw!!....I still plan on making my way to Ecuador in Feb but it would be nice and very good if he could come home with me!.....Come on people can't I just put him in my suit case? Whats wrong with that? I would totally pay the over weight price on my husband for my suit case lol:)

There have been so many things that I have thought of how to get him home with me...but none of them are quite legal so there for I can not do it....I want everything to be done right...so I will never have to go threw everything that I am going threw again in my life ever!! It was worth it to go threw anything to get my love of my life back here but I don't think I could do anything like this ever again...come on people I moved back in with my parents something that I thought that I would never do in my life!

I went from the only person I knew that moved out on her own made a life for herself and a family at a young age had savings and had mostly everything I wanted in life or I was getting there....then we ran into the immigration problem....I love my husband to death but...if someone was to ask me or if I was to see someone with someone who did not have papers my words for the person would be don't be with that person leave before you fall in love with them...do not even have a relationship with them....it gets hard because most people would do anything for the person they love and the person who you want to spend the rest of your life with....but really it makes it so hard on you....even though Rogelio and I have had a better Relationship....and grew us more together I still would say that to other people...

I always say that I would never take anything back in life or change anything....And I would not....even though I have been threw alot with the whole immigration thing ....I have learned tuns!!

Some things I have learned...Shopping...you can shop for a lot cheaper....don't setal for things that are a lot of money you can always shop around and find it cheaper....how to clean with different products....how to take better care of my children...whats wright and wrong....not taking so much things for granted...who your real friends are...family comes first...money is not everything....spending limits....taking care of a pet is a lot!!...life lessons from living with my father there must have been like a million things that my dad has taught me or I have learned from him that I did not know before....sure he gets to talk alot and I mean a lot but if you listen a lot of it is interesting most of the time....( my father has been around the world and back):) ....there are soo sooo much more that I have learned but I will not write all of them lol....

For me to be able to step back from the life that I had and look at what I was doing and what I needed to change and grow up on some parts was something that I needed to do...something that I understand now is that I am ready...I am ready to move on with life...and never stop learning things but to move on be my new self....be ME!

I pray every day that Rogelio can come home very soon! Like tommw:) I dream every night about how our life will be again together at last!

On another note...last week we were all sick here at the house with the belly virus! it sucked even Antonio had to cancel his surgery that we had last week because we were all sick...he will be having surgery again soon...He has a pre-op then later the surgery...I am nerves like I always am without Rogelio here....It is very hard for Antonio to go threw things without his dad here.

One thing that I do not understand and If anyone knows why this is tell me....Why do people with records get to stay here and get papers here in U.S.A. then they send people back to there country's that have family's here and have not done anything wrong but that they came here without a visa?

Well I will chat with you all later Miguel is starting to get into things....:) Please Pray for Rogelio to Return fast! Thanks:)

Waiting On Things....

So We thought of getting a new lawyer but......we checked it out and it seemed that we should try this with the lawyer that we have.....There are so many other lawyers out there that all they want is money....how do you know who to trust with your life? It is a hard thing to decide.....you have to think about it and even though we do not always make the best of decisions we try to do what we think is best at the time.

All this immigration stuff is so hard....We still have not filed for the wavier but in a few days we will be...then its the waiting game.....I know I have not wrote in here for a long time so I wanted to write something.....It has been VERY hard here with out Rogelio makes me want to win a million dollars and go stay with him....well it might not come to that...but I really hope he can come home soon....This whole thing has changed my life so much and so many other peoples.....I really hope it dose not come to me having to go to Ecuador to live....that would not be the best choice for the children....it would be only hurting them.....there are so many bad things in Ecuador and not enof med's and help for the children that they need like we have here In U.S.A. it would be hard. I know it is very hard for Rogelio to be there and away from us.....I don't want to put the kids threw that for a long period of time. We could do it for a bit but not long.....well talk to you guys soon.......